Where Are You Playing The Waiting Game?Mar 18, 2022
Are you a lurker when it comes to your healing? Do you take in all the information and then not act or put into practice what you’ve taken in? This was me. I had this habit of grabbing all the instructions and all the ideas, filing them away in my brain, and then moving on to the next thing. In my mind, it was important that I assembled ALL of the pieces I might need before I took action. I wanted to be ready, to be able to respond appropriately when embarking on a new exploration, or implementing a new healing tool, or deviating from a tried and true routine.
Well, what if *gasp* I did it wrong?
Well, what if by doing it wrong, I messed something up, or made a mistake? Or I looked silly or dumb?
Ah, there it is. Fear. I told myself that as soon as I had gathered enough information, I would act on it. But that was a stalling tactic. It was a fear of being judged that kept me standing still.
Does this happen to you? Are you lurking, hoarding all the things, waiting to have everything in perfect order before starting or taking the next step? Are you waiting until you have all the pieces together before you choose YOU, make healthy changes, or follow your heart?
Here’s the thing: no one cares. Seriously. No one cares if you get it wrong, if you fall down, if you make a mistake, if you have only 1 piece of the puzzle. And if they do care, if they do decide to judge you, then that is ON THEM. It is not your story. Unless you make it your story by buying their projections as truth.
Wanting everything to be perfect before taking action is a bypass strategy; it’s fear masquerading as perfectionism. The truth? There is no such thing as perfect. Perfection is a story we use to keep us hiding and playing small, to keep ourselves from being seen, to keep ourselves stuck.
The real story is the fear.
The presence of fear, or a need to control the outcome, or any of the things that keep you from trying something new shows you where there’s work to be done. Often there are Akashics involved – cords, contracts, oaths, vows, curses – that, once cleared and lifted, will make it easier to not give 2 bleeps about what anyone thinks.
So, where are you lurking? Where are you holding yourself back? What’s the next right step for your healing journey? Where are you playing the waiting game to keep yourself from moving forward?